Mid-Exam Breakdown

Either everyone or most of you have been in this situation before.

Your sitting in the examination hall. Waiting and staring at your untouched question booklet. Your mind and heart praying to see the questions that you hope for are in the booklet. As you slowly turn the page turner (literally), foreign words and questions started to shout at you.

Okay not too foreign. Just words and questions that you may know but it ends up only one word. Yet the question ask for an essay. 

I am no Einstein. I am not a philosopher. I read through my notes thousands of times, but why the important ones don't show up in my brain.

My brain trying to find the answer to a question.

There is also the situation of reading the question but in all of the excitement of answering and sending the paper in... You realise something. Your head was thinking of different things while your question is asking for a whole other chapter.

My Life just went downhill.

Any advice?

Good Luck!

Good Luck Everyone!

Either at school, university, work or staying home, good luck. Good luck with examinations and life. Remember that you are not the only one.

I am now struggling in my first year second-semester final exam. I already went to war for four papers and still four more left to go. It's going to be a long week, but it's worth it. Some people in different courses are struggling with last paper syndrome. Yet I am dying out of four paper syndrome. 

I hope this can end fast so I can come back to my loving family at home for fasting and to celebrate Raya with.

Before I forget, happy fasting and Selamat Hari Raya to all of you.

Saya, Aku, Kita...

Today, I noticed that people have different information and perspective of the world and one another. When I was praying terawih, I was sadly in the middle. On both sides, someone is calling for me to 'rapatkan saf' on their side. Sadly, I chose a side.

I could really decide on what side to 'rapatkan saf'. This is all because of me having experience in two situations. Both of them was when I was in secondary school. As some of you may know, I went to two schools in standard one. In the first part of the year, I was in Sultan Ibrahim Girl School (SIGS) Johor Bahru, Johor. I stayed in the hostel. Every time I stayed there, I usually go to the right. As they all do they prayer by 'rapatkan saf' to the right.

But when I transfer to Sekolah Tun Fatimah (STF) Johor Bahru, Johor, a different situation occurs. Everyone 'rapatkan saf' to the middle. And as a girl who didn't want to shine a light on herself, follow both situations.

I also checked the internet and there were many that have both opinions. So... I'm stuck.

As this trouble occurs, I noticed that this is related to my problem with saying saya, aku, kita and also saying in my first name.

'Saya suka menyanyi.' If I say this, people call me goody-two-shoes.
'Aku suka menari.' If I say this, people call me a jerk or being rude. This is also my parent's forbidden word.
'Kita suka warna biru.' If I say this, people think I'm dumb as a don't know Malay grammar. But it's one of the normal calling of Johoreans.
'Alya suka melukis.' If I say this, people think I was referring to someone else and think it's strange.

No matter, how I call myself there is still a flaw. But everywhere I go these kinds of words people call themselves.

I will still continue my research on how these things go. Stay updated.