Poem of the Day

Sonnet 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? 
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date: 
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd; 
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st; 
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

( Today I feel Shakespeary with no sudden motive. Enjoy. ;) )

Poem of the Day

A bell is no bell 'til you ring it,
A song is no song 'til you sing it,
And love in your heart
Wasn’t put there to stay -
Love isn’t love
'Til you give it away

Poem of the Day

Just shine like a star upon the sky,
and be what you want to be,
b'cuz your future,
it's your own possibilities.

Poem of the Day

Even when you are feeling blue,

smile a little it could make you feel true.

Wash away those useless tears,

take my hand we will get out of here.

(Here: the world of lies and misery)

Poem of the Day

With fun lives boredom,

With sun lives rain;
With friends lives enemies,
Like an ever after train.
When friends fight and hearts crush,
Those people don't know what it means;
To be in the middle of everything,
It's more difficult as it seems.
People think those people are the only one's crush,
but it's totally not;
The one whose hurt and crush,
Is the middle, is it not?
Being taunted by taking sides,
Finding a way to peace;
Those people don't know what it feels like,
To be in the middle of everything.

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Even though you whispered to me your wonderful song,
yet your heart is crying out pains of life.
But you keep your smile hiding that frown,
but still, your eyes shouting out the sadness in the light blue sky.
I wanted to reach for your broken heart,
Yet you made your heart seal closed making it unreachable.
What will you do? Who will you tell?
Which is the lie that you keep in your soul,
Tell me, give me, show me,
don't let me stand lifeless waiting.
Make me the one who will be you,
the one who will be there when you are not you.

Understand! Understood.

Finish my first paper for this final examination. As I always say to myself, start with confidence and end with confidence. So even for this first paper we need to try our best no matter what.

Well, actually... Everytime we need to be and do our best. Never let your guard down and strive for victory. No matter what happen just do the very best.

Even though the results aren't that pretty but at least you did the best you can. And that's worth it.

Catching Memories in Memory Lane.

As I was scrolling my facebook page, I noticed a memory post that they put up for me. It caught my eye as the picture was me on the first day of living in a boarding school at S.I.G.S when I was 13. I was really small at the time, so people didn't believe that I could even stand living away from my parents. But look at me now.

As I was scrolling, I noticed there were 20+ comments and it intrigued me to read all of them. As I was reading it, my eyes started to get watery as my mother commented most on that post. And one post made me burst into tears.

This comment was written by my mother and I never realize how she remembered and she cared for me at the time. She cared and I cared but every time I remembered the past that I have been through, I never realized that she was with me. Remembering what I have been through.

Even though this Facebook post was in 2011, but I still felt a touched of memory and it made my heart burst into happiness and satisfaction on what it made me today.

My Confession

I have something to confess to all of you. Besides eczema that it's getting better by the day (Thank goodness), I have a problem where I have the urge to pull my hair. A disorder is known as Trichotillomania.

Trichotillomania, also called hair-pulling disorder, is a mental disorder that involves recurrent, irresistible urges to pull out hair from your scalp, eyebrows or other areas of your body, despite trying to stop.

Hair pulling from the scalp often leaves patchy bald spots, which causes significant distress and can interfere with social or work functioning. People with trichotillomania may go to great lengths to disguise the loss of hair.

For some people, trichotillomania may be mild and generally manageable. For others, the compulsive urge to pull hair is overwhelming.

Such as for me, I find a sense of satisfaction by pulling a hair or even just seeing a successful pull with a full follicle.

To know more see the video below:

To some people, I may look like a nuisance especially because I'll be leaving hair all over my room and everywhere I go. But I tried my best to clean it all up. Fortunate for me for wearing a hijab so I can hide my disorder. But one day, I hope I can stop this disorder occurring so it doesn't affect my social life.

Adikarma Expressionism 2.0

To tell you the truth, I wanted to post this earlier as it was on 15th December 2017. Sorry for the late posting. I hope you can find which one is me...

A New Day A New Year

My new year resolution is to write often on my blog. So I can tell about my life. The troubles so you can avoid them and the happiness so you can experience them.

First thing first...

Welcome to a new year, a new day and a new start. Let 2017 be in the past and look upon the next 365 days that are coming. Stay tight cause there might be some big turns, but if you hold on tight you might end safely and alive. Just be yourself and become a better you.